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Hello hello

I am sad to announce my mother, of whom i have been taking care of, has passed away. She has been a wonderful person to take of in her elder years but the cancer won.

The cancer, along with her Dementia, has made it hard over the past couple of years. I have had to choose between my career and my family.

One of the many blessings was that she remembered me, despite the Dementia. And although at times, she thought it was earlier years at times, it was a blessing and an honor to be there for her.

I of course chose my family first and I am proud to have done so, it was the least thing i could do since my mother have me life.

More and more people I have seen have not be there for their aging parents. This makes my heart sick. But, its a labor of love, and not for the faint of heart.

I have lost jobs and I have had to resign from jobs due to her ailing health and the chronic stress on myself as well. This has taken a severe toll on my concentration, as well as my focus. However, I am back on the ball, as they say, and ready to heal and start fresh.

I am eager to begin again in my career in digital marketing and start a new life as this grief still catches me at times, it is and will always be a blessing to me to have been there for her. So many people do not have family. And i got to be there for mine!

for those of you who have experienced the loss of your parents’ i believe you understand the emotions it brings up as we process the pitfalls and the successes of an 8 year care-taking process.

I have been trying to stay abreast of the new changes in AI and its development in marketing, and I have been intrigued but not 100% sold on the idea yet, but its apart of the future. And AI is pretty neat.

Regardless, I have also brought back my website steak knife poetry except it will be titled differently. Steak Knife Poetry is a book/zine i created back in 2014. IYKYK and IYDK that is fine too. After selling out of my small-run hand-published collection. And receiving actual real life threats about the publication online. I took it down due to its sexual harassment. It involved informational resources for sexual assault. After the back-lash of the #MeToo movement re-victimizing some survivors (myself included) i found it necessary to remove the publication online.

Now it is re-imagined as a collection of new and old poetry under a new name. And is going to be, possibly, a new platform for simply poetry.

Since the sexual assault and attempted murder that occured in 2013 by a third-level sex offender, I have been making efforts to heal to the best of my ability along with the care-taking of my mother and her decline.

Thanks Mom, for saving my life.

And thank you for your understanding and empathy while I repair from a serious of unfortunate events and some rough years. Tomorrow is a new day, and like mom told me about the dream she had about me, keep looking for the yellow butterflies. Like the sun they fly.

Stay safe Everyone

-Carrie